Beginnings are fun!?

So today is cd1.  I have mixed emotions about today.  This cycle was 21 days.  Yep 21!  This just reassures me that we can't do this alone.  However, Yippee!!!  It is cd1!!!

Wednesday I have my first acupuncture appointment.  For some reason my nerves are getting to me.  Sure it is most likely fear of the unknown.  The rational part of my brain, is telling me that everything will be great.

Thursday will be my cd3 check up.  K just offered to go with me, since that is his day off.  He is going to come and pick me up at work & we will go to lunch.  It will be so nice to have him there.  He can help me listen, especially if I get instructions about shots.  Eeeek!

Friday we are going out of town for my work function.  We will be staying at a family friendly hotel with a water park. 

Saturday I will be in charge of the kids activities, K is supposed to help me.  When should I start praying for strength to supervise a bunch of stranger's children?  Sure, a few I will know their parents, but not the majority.

Hopefully for K's sake, AF will have completed her visit by this weekend!

Doesn't feel like just another Sunday

Until this year, Mother's Day has not bothered me.  I am not sure if trying is getting to me or if it is the break.  Emotionally I am off.  I feel like nothing I have been doing is right.  All I have wanted to do was nap.  My furbaby was super sweet and napped on the couch with me this afternoon.

Like most, I avoided fb today.  I updated the status to wish my mother and mil Happy Mother's Day.  The logged off for the day.  My parents are in Hawaii, so I know my Mom is having a GREAT MD.  My mil appreciated my note, she told DH to let me know.  Then I started to cry, I did not want to think about it at all.
 
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This month I finally broke down and ordered the cheap internet tests.  This cycle is really been a bummer.

Apparently Dr G is going to be moving to Arizona in July.  I am completely attached to her.  It is upsetting me, more than it probably should.  There are 2 other REs (1 female & 1 male) in the office, they actually own the practice.  Sure, they will do a fantastic job taking care of me, but they don't know me.  I have known Dr G since July 2009.  I am totally being a baby about this, but it is still fresh.  BTW - My sister told me this news, and Dr G will still let me her news.  Right now I am trying to prepare myself so I don't totally breakdown in the office.


Tomorrow is a new day & the start of a new week.  Hopefully it brings me any sort of good news!

A Cycle Break

Last Friday, I went to get my cycle day 3 ultrasound done.  Well, I could have guessed my ovaries were not clear.  They have not been clear yet.  But for some reason, maybe since AF was so incredibly heavy, I thought maybe there could be good news.  Silly me.  Typically there is some sort of odd shaped left-overs hanging out on my right ovary.  Once it actually had a star shape in the center, clear sign that the egg was released.  This time no such luck.  It was HUGE!  They did not even bother to take my blood; they ALWAYS take my blood.  I sat out in the lobby, waiting for Dr G to finish up with another patient.  Just had that "not so good" feeling.  The nurse was sweet when she said that "We will skip this cycle, so we can start fresh next cycle.  Plus Dr G is not sure that I really was able to measure the whole thing."  GREAT! 

So now that I am officially 32, onto the 19th month and on cycle #23 or so (really who can keep track when you get into these sorts of numbers), I am on a break.  No big deal.  Except this was the FIRST cycle in a year that I will not be needing to plan around work related flights!  FRUSTRATING! 

But that is why IF sucks! 

So fast forward to tonight, cd6.  Not on meds this cycle.  I am a CM producing fool!  Before all of the med cycles, I was a CM producing fool.  I do get changes in color and stretch.  However, K is at home, I am here in Cincy until Thurs (cd 9).  Typically, I O on cd10.  Hopefully this will be the case since K is off this weekend.